My life has been a whirlwind of change for the past 3+ years, but instead of hating it, it has become a way of life. A comfortable way of life at that. I am good at being busy, but I am not the best at embracing change, unless it is for the better or easy. I’m not horrible at it; I’m just not a pro. Being busy helps me come to grips with change…the uncontrollable. I have a hard time understanding why in a sea of uncertainty, someone wouldn’t want to keep their mind and body busy. If I am unsure or nervous about something, the purging, cleaning, crafting, go-go-go Sarah emerges. She came to the forefront last night. I’m redoing the office.
I’m not talking about moving existing furniture around and cleaning, I’m talking about making an L-shaped desk from doors, painting the desk, painting chairs, purging magazines, books, paperwork, fabric, arts and crafts, pictures, everything. The office will look like a new room when I am done with it and I am really excited! Through this process, Jared will get a desk in his room. This is something that he needs. Doing his homework at the kitchen table is no longer effective. He needs to be in a quiet place without distractions. Fingers crossed the novelty of a desk helps him get his homework done faster and more efficiently.
I don’t know if life is changing now or if I am just worried about the future. I think the latter is more realistic. Nothing is in stone, nothing can be in stone. Jobs are constant…for now. We are renting when we really wish we owned. Jared will need to switch schools next year because I don’t approve of the middle school in the area. The holidays are around the corner and I have this goal of making all of the Christmas presents…that’s a huge task when you are one of 6, have 2 sets of in-laws, and a huge extended family. Pinterest, I think we are going to be good friends in the coming months.
Maybe my need to purge, reorganize, etc stems from my brain being overwhelmed and a jumbled mess…if my house is in order than all will be well in the world. A clean home is a happy mind…just maybe that is the key to this maze, just maybe.
A glass of wine and a good workout outside never hurt to clear my mind either. J
How do you handle uncertainty or being overwhelmed with life?