Fine is not a feeling.
I heard that this weekend. I'm blanking as to where I heard it, but it got me thinking. Fine isn't a feeling. It's what
people say I say when I don't want to expose my true feelings. It's the scapegoat of feelings.
Don't get me wrong. I fully support people keeping their feelings to themselves and saying "I'm FINE," but I do believe that it means
I don't want to tell you how I'm feeling
or I'm hiding something
or I hurt badly
or Why the heck do you care?
or I'm working on it...got it under control
or I'm embarrassed to say the truth.
Regardless of the reason, fine isn't a feeling in my opinion.
I say it a lot.
And I generally say it when I don't want to talk...which is frequent.
I like to handle things on my own, in my own time, according to my rules.
This causes issues in relationships, but it's how I am. If I feel forced into making a decision I am not sure about, it gets ugly inside me. I am a worrier. Period.
The more I worry, the tenser I get, the more I retreat inside myself, the more I cry.
Crying helps though.
Wow. That was a tangent.
Here is a pretty sky picture to lighten the mood.
I love the sky. Like totally LOVE.
Mother Nature delivered once again. Love her!